Wednesday, November 20, 2013

A Quick Rant

I was just about to post a huge status update on Facebook when I quickly stopped myself. I'm not one to usually post anything to Facebook. I use it more as a 'staying in contact' type of page. But since I still wanted to post it somewhere I thought here would suffice. One of my friends on Facebook liked an article by Huffington Post so it popped up on my newsfeed. My reaction is below for what it's worth...

This article doesn't bother me because I'm recently engaged (although admittedly that's probably why I originally clicked it). It bothers me because it's a whole article to shaming people who post optimistic, happy things on social media. Is that not allowed any more? I have a problem when it becomes "stupid" or "annoying" to post life updates that you'd like to share with people and they get frustrated. HEY BUDDY, it's not always about YOU. If you don't like it, hide from timeline and move on. Do we really have to write an article bashing people's sharing habits? End rant.

Sunday, November 17, 2013

That Time of Year Again

It always happens in academia. Just as you start getting into the groove of things, the semester starts to wind right back down. Currently I have 7 papers, 3 presentations, and lots of meetings within the next two weeks. I hope I can write a few posts about each paper - I think the stuff is pretty interesting. Mostly I am stressed because I'm not stressed and I'm the biggest procrastinator out there. If I've learnt anything in the last few years in school it's that apparently pressure is my friend. 

I found out on Thursday night that my practicum placement did not come through. It's both a blessing and a curse in that I have to start all over again in terms of the matching and interview process at such a busy time but I was concerned about not widening my breadth of experiences - now I have that opportunity. I'm really excited to see what comes of the new choices. 

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Things That Match My Soul

I find all my new favourite music on CBC Radio 2
Here's my latest heard on the Drive early this evening. 
Forever and ever - Royal Wood

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

On Living with a Significant Other

Ryan and I recently moved in together for the first time at the ripe age of 22. After decided on where to do my Master's we began looking at places and actually settled on the first and only apartment we looked at. We were so excited for this new and somewhat unknown adventure upon us. The first few weeks were what most couples describe as "playing house". Everything was so easy and fun, like we had been doing it all our lives. But after awhile, little things were becoming annoyances and cleaning was not happening so often and the apartment was getting messy and this and that and life wasn't so easy anymore. And like all things happen in a perfectly timed way, I read this article called I Didn't Love my Wife When We Got Married. After reading the article, we realized that after being in a long-distance relationship for the majority of the time over the past 4 years, love is not something we simply say to each other; it's how we express it in our actions each and every day.

So many people have been so curious about how we are doing living together. It feels as though they almost expect us to be at each other's throats by now! And in some moments we are, but is that not love? Living in someone's flaws and loving them for it? Some people expect us to have had bumps along the road and struggle with our schedules and coordination. But it all goes back to that notion that love isn't always a feeling we communicate but an action we show. We had that love before we moved in together so it was easy for us to adapt and learn to show it in a new way and trust each other in a new way too.

One of the coolest things we both realized after leaving together for a short period of time was how much this place feels like home. One day I remember just feeling so at peace with where I was, I asked Ryan if he felt the same way, if he felt that this was his home. He replied of course and we talked more about it. I found it so interesting that after living in an awesomely decorated apartment (thanks parents!) for literally weeks, it felt like the most comfortable place in the world. We realized for one of the first times in our lives that we are literally each other's "home". It didn't matter where we were, how much money we had, whether our apartment was messy or clean, whether or not this was the best decision, it was comfortable being in it together.

Yes things can get tough like why are there so many dirty dishes in every single room, why is the bathroom seat up, can you just put the cap on the toothpaste on, stop throwing my loofa on the floor of the shower type of things. But at the end of the day, those things make us who we are and I love them. How much would I hate to wake up tomorrow morning discovering Ryan was no longer part of my life. That my loofa was constantly hanging in the proper place and I never had to pick it up - so boring. That there were no socks or pants on the floor of his side of the bed - that homeyness feeling. I love those things and love learning how to turn my love into an action rather than feeling. And now I get to do that everyday.

Oh, he also sends me pictures of our family when I'm not home!

Monday, November 4, 2013

November Goals

Courtesy of Melissa at [insert sarcastic remark here]

  • run 10km comfortably by the end of the month. This will be difficult as I already hate running outside in the cold and running on the treadmill anymore then half an hour is painfully boring. It;s a conundrum I will have to face and tackle this month 
  • book our wedding venue and engagement photos. We've been putting so much off on this wedding planning business...probably because there's so much to think about it and we don't even know where to start. 
  • get more involved in the community. Find events and attend them. We struggle most with the latter. 
  • finish the semester strong. I'll admit it. I'm not as busy as I thought I would be or as much as I should be. I AM going to get a hold on all the readings, put my all into assignments, and stop complaining. 
  • more yoga in new places. I've only really ever done yoga at my gym. I'd love to try a place that actually "specializes" in yoga, lives and breathes it type of thing. One of my friends keeps asking me if I'd be up for joining but I never respond. Which brings me to...
  • start intentionally responding to text messages, emails, and phone calls. This has got to be one of my biggest bad habits right now. Doesn't matter who or when or how, I just never respond to things, ever! Get on this, now! 

Sunday, November 3, 2013

A Ruff Conversation

"Can you please put some of the laundry away?" - DeeBee

"Yea, I'm just so tired. I took the dog on a super long walk this morning and worked all day" - Ryan

"So did Zoey. She had a long walk and worked really hard in her crate all day long" - DeeBee

"No she didn't! She slept all day! Sometimes I wish I had a human-sized crate. It'd be so comfy and cosy. It would be so warm to sleep in and have all these toys around me" - Ryan

"Like as in a bedroom?" - DeeBee

"NO! It would have a cover on top." - Ryan

"Like a ceiling?" - DeeBee

"Ugh." - Ryan

Back to the Basics

Here's the thing.

I love this here little blog and I can't seem to get away from it. Not one little bit.

I'd always loved the idea of blogging with my best friend and now fiance, Ryan. What a better time to start then when we were moving in together for the first time? Perfect! Well, it's actually drifted to the way side for some specific reasons:

1. I found that I was writing WAY more often than Ryan was. What was the point of having a joint blog if I was the only one posting? I didn't want to come off as if I was speaking for us as a couple the whole time - I'm only one half.
2. Based off of the previous point I had this pressure that if no one was posting regularly, that I would have to remember to post everything myself! This got really difficult when weeks went by without posting. So much unconscious pressure!
3. There are so many things I am interested in and want to post about that don't necessarily reflect Ryan and I as a couple. I am happy to say that we are both do not primarily identify ourselves in relation to the other HOWEVER we are huge parts of each other's lives. So I felt myself holding back because I knew some of the things I wanted to write about weren't things that representing Ryan to the fullest.

I could probably ramble aimlessly on but you get the idea. So here's where I am now, resurrecting this old blog of mine. It actually feels so cosy and snuggly, just clicking on that "DeeBee" button again.

You best believe that there will be some good posts coming soon. Starting my Masters in Social Work has forced so many ideas, concepts, theories, thoughts into my brain it may explode any day now.